Do you believe in God?

A year ago, when I first joined this site, I would have said otherwise - simply read my earliest posts on this forum; but no, I do not believe in God anymore. 

When my Grandpa first died in 2009 was when I began to question my own faith. Since then more and more things kept pummeling me with logic. If God is so all-loving and powerful, why is there such acts of unnecessary violence and death? Why is there stuff such as adultery, rape, murder, racism, betrayal, poverty...it does not make sense to be all loving yet encompass the world in such darkness. Unless this "God" is a tyrannical sociopath, I see no reason for the world to be this harsh. According to "God"'s word, yes, there is a heaven, a paradise to go to after we die, but what did our first life achieve according to that? What did it build up to?

Think of, oh, say for example, Little Kimmy. She is an avid Christian and yet, she is pummeled countlessly, day after day, again and again and again by darkness such as bullying, abuse, loneliness, and exposure to drugs. She lives in a dying city with no color, but she still keeps hope. While hope is a good thing, why put the aforementioned hope into someone you can't prove exists or doesn't exist?

And so she lives life, one day at a time. Up until the age of fourteen, it becomes too much to bear, and the pain in her life causes her to off herself. For this, God is eternally angry at her, a lost soul who loved Him with all her heart as she kept hope in Him, and she is sent to hell, to burn in fiery brimstone and suffering and hatred for eternity. And yet, God still somehow "loves" her...

It all makes no sense whatsoever. Rape is not necessary. Wanton violence is not necessary. Starvation is not necessary. Nothing negative is necessary but this all powerful, all loving "God" puts us on Earth with no cause or purpose other than to be torn through either path - a good life or a bad life. In some ways, I see "God" as a favoritist for this fact alone. If some people are loved by the dollar and vice versa, and/or have a loving family, home, happiness, and safety, why are other innocents forced to suffer? It does not tie into anything.good in this world and never will.

But the main problem I have is with religion itself. While the Bible itself was many a flawed, it still tried to give off a positive message, which was morality, albeit doing it in a sickeningly disorderly and disastrous fashion. But the religious, the pathetic and wanton cultists who will not hesitate to twist, turn, and bend every story in the Bible into something of an evil, voluptuous mass of immorality. "God hates fags. You will die for your sins. You are an atheist, so you will burn in eternal hell. You are a gay supporter so you must be exterminated." It's people like this, and the sanity of people like this, that truly makes me ponder the current stability of the human race. Take for example the shooting that happened earlier this morning. If God is an all loving all powerful creature, why do things like this happen? Why are the innocents dead? Why is anyone dead at all? To this I have come with the conclusion that there is no God. If there was, he would not promote such acts of crime and despair in the world. I say the Universe is a mysterious network - no Gods, Goddesses, or Deities involved.